The past few weeks, I’ve been bombarded with stressful events and situations, both the good and the bad kind of stress. I found myself struggling living out Colossians 3:2 which says, “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.” Yes, I found it difficult to work for the Lord because it’s hard to see/feel Him in other people and sometimes I do not see the value of what I do nor do I feel any fulfilment and productivity. It’s difficult to work when your time is not respected or considered, at the very least.
Lack of time is no longer a strange or new issue to me. But, lately, I cannot shrug off my mind the things I wish to do or I need to do had I enough time. No matter how hard I try, I still cannot find time for life’s most essentials, like spiritual nourishment. So, today, I pray to dear Jesus to help me make time for the following:
- Enjoy God’s gift of nature. Appreciate and experience, become one with the mountains, seashores and fields of greens and flowers.
ReadStudy the Bible.
- Read my Trading Book.
- Meet my friends.
- Take care of myself. Take a long, good and uninterrupted warm shower. Have a massage for my MPS back pain. Go to the salon. It has been 6 months since the last time I got my hair trimmed.
- Watch a movie other than Disney’s and Pixar’s without interruption.
- Notice the wonderful little things that surround our lives. Say, look up the sky, lie down under the stars, camp in a mountain, watch the sunset and just breathe some fresh air. All these, unrushed.
That’s why I want to be like a kid again, at heart. I think it’s okay to be child-like when it comes to our faith and overall life outlook and approach. Imagine a child’s innocence and natural good intentions. To keep the child in us does not mean we should act childish. I do not really know (yet) where the balance is but all I know is that kids are happier, kinder and closer to God because they are not yet exposed to the not so good stuff in life. Their brains and hearts are still guarded, much like the way Adam and Eve were shielded to enjoy the Paradise God had given them. Somehow, I’d really love to liven up the child in me, to learn more, feel more, love more and live more. Yes, only children can do that and a few more:
- Children smile often and they cry a lot too. Yet, they are the most forgiving of all and they do not harbor ill feelings longer than they should. It’s just amazing. I’ve experienced this with my kids a hundred of times.
- They talk with much honesty, even when it’s Jesus they are talking with. They have no pretensions. They do not sugar coat what they say yet their words hardly hurt anyone. Any hurtful words that may come out of their cute lips are the ones they’ve heard from us and their surroundings.
- They view the world as a place so big and wonderful and friendly. They have endless curiosities for it. It sometimes saddens me to be the pone to crush their innocent and magnificent view of the world whenever I have to warn them of the dangers lurking around. It pains me really to be the one to tell them that not everyone they meet are good people. Not everything is safe and lovely.
- They do not fail to appreciate even the smallest blessings. They see all blessings equally regardless of brand, size, number or price.
- They follow their heart. They do what they think and feel should do. They cry if they need to express sadness, anger and dismay. They laugh and smile if they are happy. They do not care what others would think of them if they are doing something silly or crazy.
- They do not care about superficialities. They do not know mediocrity.
- They know what’s most important and that is to live and love their parents. And then, they either realize from us that there are other important or more important things than love, family and God. It’s up to us.
Perhaps, I should learn how to unlearn a few things I’ve learned as I was growing up. The things which already became my constant thoughts, which guided my actions and eventually became my habits and formed part of my character. Don’t get me wrong, I love being an adult and everything that comes with it, freedom, maturity, lessons, experiences, wisdom and capacity. But, I cannot deny the fact that being an adult has taken so many good things in my life and I can no longer deprive myself of those good things less I want to continue living incomplete. Hence, I decided to find my way back into my child-like heart and hopefully restore my child-like spirit. After all, I am and always will be a child of God. I can’t wait to begin this journey. I can’t wait to replace complexity with simplicity. I can’t wait to kick out all these wrinkle-causing stressessesses.
How about you? Would you like to restore any part of your child persona?
|For a starter. I still have it (child heart) in me, after all! 🙂|